Getting something off my chest.....

Today I feel a little depressed I guess you could say. I know that the hormone changes don't help any but it really isn't from having the baby it is just from all the new things that are going on in my life. I guess Levi couldn't have come at a better time for me. I feel like I am losing something that has means alot to me and it is just out of my control but in it's place I now have a new best friend in my little Levi. If I feel down I can just look in his eyes and I can feel the love from him and it just warms my heart, which right now is exactly what I need. I know that things come into our lives and they leave too but it is real painful to lose something that you really care about, and what is even worse is when it is still right in front of you but really it's not there anymore. I know that God has a plan for everything in my life so I just gotta believe that He is working everything for my good. I am sorry to dish on you guys but sometimes just getting it out helps you to cope better. I am just at a stage in my life that I am scared and I feel like I don't have any control of the future that is scarey. I want to build this huge wall up around me and my family to keep the hurt out but I can't. I want to protect the people I love but they won't let me. I will just have to leave it in God's Hands. He is the only one that can fix it and make it work. I just care about people too much I guess. I worry too much. Just help me pray about this thing in my life that I will just let God have control and that He will help me to be in the right and do what I am supposed to do. Thanks for listening....Maybe next time I won't be whinning so much...