Wow, it's been a long time.....

Hey ya'll. It has been like forever since I blogged and I just thought I would take the time to say hi and maybe catch up a little. I am sitting on the couch waiting on the washer to stop so I can put the clothes in the dryer before I go to sleep and I am so sleepy. I went into work extra early this morning and I am regreting it now. Frank is working nights this week again so that makes for a boring night. I miss him. We fuss alot or just irritate each other so it is kind of nice to get a break....hehe....Don't tell him I said that. I love him lots but gosh, sometimes he is hard to deal with. Not to mention that I am a little bit hard to please here lately. I don't care to admit it, I know my attitude stinks right now and I really am praying about it but it is so hard to feel good right now. I know you don't want to hear my sob story so I won't go into too much detail but my hormones are messed up right now and I am waiting on the doctor to take out my birthcontrol which is inside me so I can't take it out myself so that means I just have to suffer until she can get to me. She doesn't think that this BC is affecting me this way but she doesn't know everything, I ain't stupid, you know, I have birthed three babies and lived with one man for ten years so I do know a few things...lol...Did ya like the southern talk there? I did...lol...Anyway, I hope to be normal again soon. I just really hate to feel bad. I wanna feel good......

Frank is trying to get a job with the state. I know the man that is over all the Dept. of Transportation because I used to work with his wife at the bank so maybe that will help Frank get this job. We really need this because he needs insurance and a good sturdy job. He has been working his tail off lately and it has paid good but he is about to kill himself working so hard. If you don't care then please help us pray about this job and God's will in our lives. I know God has a plan but I just can't see it yet. I just gotta keep on going, trusting God the whole way, because he knows whats ahead and I know that if I don't quit then one day it will be perfect. Have you ever really thought about heaven and how perfect everything will be there? No more sickness, no more hormones...lol...This man named John from my Uncle Darwins church just passed away last week with cancer but I just picture him up there right now in his robe of white praising God and cheering us on, that one day it will be worth all the trials that we have gone through. I look at my poor ole Grandma and wonder why God keeps her around and then I have to realize that God has a plan and when it's Grandmas time then He will take to home to be with Him. She is so pitiful. My mom is having a hard time I think dealing with her being like this. It just breaks her heart to see her so feeble, you can see it in her eyes. Grandma is a blessing to me though. I always remember her being a godly lady and loving God. I know my Grandma is gonna be walking on the streets of gold, praising God along with John that just died and her Grandson John that beat her to heaven. What a reunion that will be. My Grandpa is waiting on her. It's been a long time but they will see each other again. Who knows Grandma may stay around for awhile longer but she just seems to be getting so weak. I just don't want her to suffer.

Wow, where did all this come from. I just started pouring my heart out and now I can't stop. I just want all my family to know that I love them and I want to see everybody in heaven one day. I love all my cousins on my moms side so much even though I don't get to see them very much and spend any time with them but I still love them. I wish everything wasn't so crazy all the time so we could make time to get together. Joy is just like me or I am just like her I think. God help her...lol...To any of the Nance family that might read this I love you too and I can't wait to see you on Thanksgiving.......

Well, I guess that will do me for now. I hear the washer spinning so it won't be much longer now and I can lay down and dream sweet dreams about my husband and my perfect hormones...lol...Love you guys and hope all is well.......Be Blessed!